I have a rule in my relationships that is very much tied to who I am as a person and is part of my moral values and self-respect. I ended up breaking it a few times, and in doing so, I saw the person next to me for who he really was – there were his true colors. Could I have confronted him with my fears countless times? Could I have talked to him when I felt something was wrong and piled up? Yes, I could have. I could have done everything differently, keeping my rule intact, my mouth shut, my heart clenched…. But that day, I listened to my intuition, my gut, my inner voice… I listened to the real me. I know something was not right; I could feel the dark energy surrounding me; my body was tight, I could feel the pain circulating through my body; my soul was petrified… The peace that was engulfing me, the beautiful love, the dreams and the heart full of hope were taken over by emptiness and sadness – it’s grey out there. Everything that was so beautiful and divine wasn’t there anymore to be fulfilled and enjoyed, and it forced me to recognize what I refused to see. I knew something was wrong, but I couldn’t named it. I’m desperately asked God to open my eyes to the unknown things and to touch my heart with the truth. I wanted to feel the reality as it really was, even if it has to cut me into pieces. I am not at all proud of my behavior that day, but I don’t regret it either. Because breaking my rule set me free.

Andreia Silva

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